19 November 2011

Believe

Believe (Cher 1999) 11/19

Because I've had time to think it through and the night is the breeding ground of philosophers and lovers
Because I’ve stood at the edge of the world watching daylight come up from below the ocean and thought I want to live where the sun sleeps
I need time to move on

I need time ticking in its ivory casements on the nightstand in the churches I need time signaling out itself but contained
Because I am afraid of death and in love with its blackness and forever and ever
Because I've had time to think it through I understand the scythe and understand that it will feel like ice melting in my chest

Do I believe in the eternal in any way is it the place of peddlers of ass to say what they believe in any category
Here is a small word that means nothing and here is my thought on it and here is a flashlight to illuminate the darkest corners of your own mind
I need time to move on

From this from myself from the ache of wanting to expand forever
Because I want to be the universe stars swirling over my flesh making me glow like I am bathed in semen under UV lamps
Because I've had time to think it through I am ready to admit that I fail

I fail in being the universe as we all fail in being the universe I am nothing if not a flesh bag full of life and that is it
And in this death which is the death of the younger idea that I could be all things to all people
I need time to move on

But in that time and in that moving I find the faint seed of growing
Because I am still nothing if not fertile and young and fire in someone’s belly
Because I've had time to think it through and I may not be the universe – yet – but I may someday bang my way there
I need time to move on